Closer by Mulderslady DISCLAIMER: They don't belong to me, wish they did. Only Skyler Wilson, and Jayson Cooper are mine RATING: R to NC-17 CLASSIFICATION: S, A, UST, RST, Character death, Pseudo-Slash, Mental MT, MO KEYWORDS: UST, RST, Mulder angst, Pseudo-Slash, Character death, Mental MT, MO SPOILERS: It has a Leaving Las Vegas Kinda vibe URL:http://www.geocities.com/Area51/Capsule/5160/extreme1.html FEEDBACK: Please!!! at damacia@home.com ARCHIVE: Oh yeah, anywhere!! SUMMARY: The thing Mulder wants most of all his occupation won't allow him to have. Note from the author: There are slash scenes in this story, You've been warned!! I usually write MSR/MOR with a dash of MT. Closer is what I call a pseudo-slash endeavor. This means Mulder is Bisexual and involved with Scully, but most sexual situations are slash. Hope you like it. I also put the lyrics to NIN's Closer at the end of my story. It inspired me to write this little ditty so I have to give it the respect it desires! :0) ********************&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& &&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& You can have my isolation, you can have the hate that it brings You can have my absence of faith, you can have my everything Help me tear down my reason, help me it's your sex I can smell Help me you make me perfect, help me become somebody else . . . My whole existence is flawed You get me closer to god Closer by NIN ************************&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& &&&&&&&&&&&&&&& "I don't know how it started and I don't want to stop. You tell me another job that I can make over 1,000 dollars a night. You tell me of a job that in one week, I make what people who have gone to school 10, 11 years make. Tell me of one job where I can work 3 days a week, and make over 3,000 bucks. I never make less than a thousand a night, I'm always safe. My clients get what they need, I get what I need and more. Mom thinks I'm a successful psychotherapist. I really don't care what Dad thinks. I'm single and I always have fun." The man said nonchalantly as he combed his hair. He looked in the mirror with his piercing hazel eyes, his strong features chiseled into a blank uncaring look as the woman he was talking to tried to process what she was just told. "Do you . . ." "My clients are all kinds, let's say that. Samantha?" Samantha nodded, looking at him with disgust in her eyes. "I get it! My brother is a gigolo! A Whore! Four years at Harvard, 3 at oxford to be a fucking prostitute!!!" She screamed at him "I prefer escort. By the time I'm 35, I'll have enough money to retire gracefully and live comfortably for the rest of my life, so don't knock it. I paid for your college tuition with it, it wasn't so bad then was it? Now excuse me, it's time for me to go to work." Jay's Escort service "Ah William, there you are. Ms. Davers, this will be your companion for the night William. Does he meet your approval??" the woman eyed Mulder with a wry smile. "Yes he does." "A thousand up front, then if you find him . . . enjoyable, tips are always appreciated." The woman pulled out the money and handed it to the man, who nodded as Mulder reached for the woman's hand. 6 a.m. "Here's your half. Hopefully it was a good night??" "Yeah Jayson it was." Mulder said, taking the 500 from his bosses' hand. Jayson Cooper the best boss an escort could have, screens all potential clients and never has any bad reports. "Total take??" Jayson asked "1,500." "Good job, want some variety this week. Got a few parties that want strippers." "Nah, not my thing. Could you give me some one though that isn't over the age of 50 Jay?" Jayson laughed "OK guy or girl?" "Doesn't matter, later." 9 a.m. Mulder made himself some tea and sighed as he looked at the picture of Samantha on his desk. She was so upset, but I had to tell her. I couldn't lie to her anymore, he thought as he looked at his ledger, putting in his take for the night, totaling it quickly. Stocks, Bonds, CD's, property 5 million dollars, goal 10 million. 5 more years and I'll be done. Next night "Hey finally, Skyler Wilson, William, does he meet your approval?" Jayson asked as the stunning man with curly black hair and mint green eyes starred at Mulder with obvious delight. "Yes he's perfect, how much?" "Thousand, and remember tips are appreciated, enjoy." Jayson said, patting Mulder on the back as he walked past. Skyler smiled at Mulder, who smiled back, placing his arm around him as he asked "So what do you do Skyler?" 1 a.m. He's been undressing me with his eyes all night, he wants me, time to make the move, Mulder thought as he moved closer to Skyler, placing his hand on his leg gently. Skyler blushed and looked into Mulder's eyes with awe. "So . . . is this good night?" "Um . . . well . . . I . . ." "Do you want something else?" Come on, come on, Mulder thought. Dang it get me in bed, I make more money that way. "Yes I do. Do you . . . do that?" "Full service." Skyler blushed more as the cab stopped. "Come on then." He said, stepping out and paying the cab. "Nice place." Mulder said looking at the brick town house "Thanks, I just bought it. I had to remodel it, so it cost less than 30." "You're kidding?" Mulder said following him up to his door. "No I . . ." Skyler faltered when Mulder touched his shoulder, kissing him behind the ear gently. "It was nothing." He said as he stepped in the house. 4 a.m. It had been awhile since he'd been with a man, he had almost forgotten what it felt like, Mulder thought as he pulled from Skyler's embrace. "Where you going? William?" Skyler asked groggily "I . . . I need to go." Skyler sat up a little and touched Mulder's back as he sat on the edge of the bed. Mulder turned and looked at Skyler. He was beautiful, hair a mess, eyes glowing in the dark. "Will you stay please? If I pay you more, will you stay till the morning?" "Skyler . . ." "Please William, here." Skyler pulled out his wallet, handing him all the cash in it. "2,000, Please stay." Mulder smiled, taking the money from his hand, petting it in his pants pocket and climbing back in. Skyler cuddled into him and sighed content. "Thank you. I'm so lonely." "You shouldn't be Skyler, you're a great guy." "I . . .I don't know why, but I am. I . . don't suppose you'd like to . . . come by on your non working nights maybe we could catch a movie or something?" "I tend not to date clients it usually doesn't work out. You'll end up getting jealous that you're not the only one who gets to have me . . .it . . . it usually ends badly. I'll stay tonight and if you request me any other time I'll stay all night, no extra charge, but nothing more." 3 weeks later "Hey William, here's the address you'll meet your date at. She's already paid." "K thanks Jay." Mulder waited in front of the restaurant. Where is she? He thought as a petite red head walked up to him. "Hi, are you William?" "Yes I am ma'am." "Dana Scully, how are you?" "Fine thank you, ready?" "Yes." She said, reaching for his hand and smiling when he looked shocked. "Why would a woman like you need to pay for a date?" he asked in awe. "Safer, plus your dates always cuter when you pay. Come on, can't wait to show those bastards up." Mulder found himself staring at Dana constantly. She's enchanting, captivating he thought as she smiled at him "So William is that really your name? You don't look like a William." "It's my middle name. I don't tell my . . .clients my first name." "Very professional, I like that." Mulder waited for an clue she wanted more as they got in the cab. She's mysterious, I have no clue what to do with her next. "Here you go, headquarters safe and sound." Dana said as the cab stopped in front of Jay's escort service "Here." she said handing him 1,500, "Are you working tomorrow?" "Um yes I am." "Good, good night beautiful stranger." He sat stunned, watching the cab pull off. Did that just happen? WOW, a night that didn't end with me in bed. "Hey William, you're back early, have a good night?" Jay said handing him 500. "Very good, 2000." "Dang, what you do?" "Absolutely nothing. Just smiled, talked with her, who is she?" "Dana? She used to be a regular, haven't seen her for a while, she's a neurosurgeon rolling in the dough. She's hard to figure, stunning though." "Very, I couldn't stop staring at her . . ." Mulder stopped when Jayson raised an eyebrow "What did I tell you William?" "I know, I didn't, it's just . . . there's just something about her." Jayson nodded, looking at his watch then Mulder. "So what you going to do now?" "Go home, get some sleep I guess, why? Got something for me?" "Got a call from Skyler Wilson. That's what ten times in the last three weeks Mulder, is something going on that I need to know about, that man's love struck." "No, it's OK." "Said he'd pay full price no matter what time you were there. Here 500, bring me back a thousand." "K Later Jay." Mulder knocked on the door, smiling when Skyler opened the door. "Hey!" Skyler said with a smile, hugging him tightly. "Hey Sky, what's up?" Skyler closed the door and headed back to his bedroom. Mulder watched his fluid movements as he grabbed something from the dresser. "Here." He said handing him a wad of cash. "No. What I tell you Sky . . ." "No for your boss. Clean up my bill." Mulder nodded, taking off his jacket getting comfortable. Mulder smiled down at Skyler as he talked. It felt good to have someone again, a friend, a lover. He felt a connection with Skyler. He let his hand travel down Skyler's arm gently, giving him a glance with his liquid eyes that said it all. Skyler leaned in, capturing his full lips in his. His fingers burning into Mulder's skin as he undressed him, felt him. "You feel great. I love the way you smell and taste. I'm scared to admit how much I like you Mulder." "I know Skyler, I'm having the same problem." Mulder said as he kissed his neck, undoing his pants and boxers. "Come on lets go to bed." He growled as he headed to the bedroom. He let his hands caress Skyler's back lightly as he put a lubed finger into his rectum, smiling when he groaned. "Like that huh?" "Oh GOD YES!" Mulder removed his fingers, replacing it with his cock ready to enter. "Ready?" he asked as he entered him slowly, making Skyler moan loudly. "Sssh, haven't started yet." "I think I'm gonna come." Mulder laughed as he started to thrust into him slowly. Skyler trembled slightly coming hard, making Mulder laugh harder. "Sorry, sorry, it just . . . sorry." "Don't be, that just means you get to do it again, and again till I'm done." Mulder pulled out of Skyler and laid next to his contented sleeping form, letting his fingers run up and down his side lightly. "I want this, I want this so much. Some one of my own, someone to come home to. Some one who loves me no matter what. Who doesn't care what I do for a living." Skyler stirred, smiling as he turned towards him. "You are so beautiful Sky. I don't want to hurt you." Mulder said, moving his fingers to tenderly caress his face. Skyler leaned into his hand and sighed heavily "You wouldn't hurt me William." He murmured softly, snuggling into him more. "Eventually I will, that's why I don't want to get too close." "Well whenever you're ready, I'll be here." 2 weeks later Jay's "William, you are really racking up the regs lately. Skyler, now Dana." "Really?" he said, perking up at the mention of her name. "Yeah, where were you this morning, tried your place . . ." "Out with my sis, so . . ." "She paid up front 2000, nice huh?" Jayson said handing him his pay. "Definitely thanks, where?" "East pier." "Thanks." "Hey Dana." Mulder said sitting next to her on the edge of the pier. "Hey William." She said softly, the wind blowing her hair from her face. "What are you doing with me Dana?" "What do you mean?" "You can't possibly be wanting for admirers." "I think you're interesting." "Do you pay all your friends?" "I should, make them more loyal." Mulder smiled "Are you in love with some one William?" "What?" "You seem happier, more relaxed, are you in love with some one?" "Not yet." "Are you seeing anyone regularly?" "Um yeah." "She doesn't mind you're . . ." "Not a she." "Oh sorry, he doesn't mind . . ."' "Not a he." Dana laughed "You have a beautiful laugh." Mulder said, tucking a strand of her fiery mane behind her ear. "Thank you, you have a beautiful smile. So your boyfriend doesn't mind that you're an escort who offers . . . full service?" "No, he says he doesn't. We aren't well what you call boyfriends yet it's complicated." Mulder said, chewing his lip slightly "You don't want him to get close and get hurt." "Yeah, plus well I mean it's part of my job to sleep with guys and I enjoy it, but I've never been in a . . . gay relationship before." "Conflicted. Let's talked about something else, I need to walk." Mulder held her hand lightly, watching the breeze blow her hair gently. "William, what's your name?" "William." "Your real name." "William is my real name." "Real first name." "I . . ." "Does Skyler know it?" "No." "How long are you going to keep it that way?" "Till I'm sure I'm in love. When I'm in love, I'll tell that person and only that person." "Five more years, then your out." Dana said, changing topics suddenly "Yeah." "Not ever going back?" "No, I want to get married, settle down, have a family, I . . . being a prostitute wasn't my original major in college." "Prostitute? What happened to escort?" Dana teased "Ah I admit it, I'm a whore. I get paid to have sex." "I'm paying to talk." "You'll eventually pay me to fuck you." "No I won't." Mulder looked at her incredulously, "What you can't believe someone would want to sleep with you without paying you?" "Never happened." Dana stopped and hugged him tightly. "You need to be loved, you need to let yourself be loved." "How about you?" "I could. I'll think about it, why don't you let Skyler?" "I'll think about it. You are the strangest person I know, you pay 2000 bucks for someone to talk to." "Well my best friend Nick's out of town." Mulder smiled, and kissed her gently on the forehead. "Bye." "Bye my sweet prince." 3 nights later "Hey Jay." "Hey William, didn't expect you in tonight. Um Skyler called for you again. I . . . you know the last few times you've gone there you didn't bring back any money. You aren't . . . getting involved with him are you? You know what happened last time that happened . . ." "Mind your own business Jay." "K, K I just don't want you to get hurt again, night Will." Mulder knocked on the door and Skyler opened it with a smile "Hey." "Hi." Mulder said as he stepped into the house. "Come on its B-movie marathon all night on Sci-fi." Mulder took off his jacket and shoes and sat on the couch. Skyler handed him a beer, snuggling against his chest stretching out along the couch. Mulder smiled allowing himself to pet Skyler's hair, who smiled up at him, snuggling into him more. "How was work?" "I had a date with Dana. She's a strange girl, never any activity, she tips great. Tonight she paid 2000 for me to talk to her." "Lonely." 10 a.m. Mulder woke up warmer than usual. He turned and looked into Skyler's mint green eyes. "Hey sleeping beauty." "What time is it?" "10." Mulder nodded, sitting up and stretching only to have Skyler pull him back down. "Sky?" he asked confused "Ssh." Skyler said softly as he pulled down Mulder's boxers. "I've been dying to know something." "What?" "What you taste like." Skyler said with a smile as he bent and engulfed Mulder in his mouth. Mulder gasped, pulling him away quickly. "What?" "No, not with out a condom." "I trust you." "I don't trust myself. I've slept with too many people not to be careful." Skyler sighed and pulled out a condom. "For later." He said mischievously as he took him into his mouth again. Mulder gripped the sheets tightly as he closed his eyes enjoying the long forgotten pleasure of having a blowjob. How long has it been? God years since I was made love to. When he was close to the edge Skyler let him drop from his mouth and Skyler put the condom on quickly. "Sky?" "Ssh." "K" Mulder said, jumping slightly when he felt a lubed finger enter him, stretching and prepping him. The finger was replaced with Skyler's cock pushing gently into him. "Relax William, you're tight" "K it's been too long." "Don't worry, I'll be gentle." Mulder held Skyler to him tightly, his cock still inside him. "William?" Mulder snapped out of his daze and let him go. "Sorry that was amazing." Skyler blushed, crawling to his side. "I've been dying to do that for weeks." "Should have done it sooner." Skyler's pager went off and he groaned. "Dang duty calls. Will you . . .be here tonight?" "Um . . ." he looked into Skyler's pleading eyes and nodded "Yeah I'll be here." Skyler smiled and kissed him hard, tasting him, the kiss getting more passionate when the pager went off again. "Alright, alright, see you later then William." 4 weeks later "William hey, I was . . ." Skyler said as he opened the door for Mulder, freezing mid sentence when he saw him. Disheveled, eyes wide with fear, trembling slightly, pale. "Sky I . . ." he stuttered out "Come in your cold. What happened?? Someone get rough with you? You need to go see Jay?" "She's . . . she's dead. She killed herself. Sky I . . ." "What? Who? Sit down, tell me from the beginning." Skyler said easing him on the couch, wrapping a blanket around him quickly as he took him into his arms. "Skyler . . . don't get mad." "I won't." ** "Hey Dana this is . . ." "William come here." Her voice was strange, weak, and needy. Mulder came to her side slowly sitting next to her. Dana looked deep into his eyes and pulled him into a fierce kiss, pulling away quickly and standing up. "Come with me." Dana's apartment Mulder let his fingers lightly trace up Dana's sides to her shoulder where he played with a strap of her sundress. He locked eyes with her and she saw the question in his eyes, and answered it with a deep kiss. He slanted his mouth over hers and inserted his tongue gently, tasting her. Dana closed her eyes and relaxed into the kiss, till she felt his fingers push one of her straps off her shoulder. She pulled away a little and saw the fierce desire in his eyes. Mulder leaned back in and kissed her more urgently. She tangled her hands in his hair, taking his succulent bottom lip into her mouth, tasting its salty sweetness. She felt Mulder smile and push her other strap off her shoulder, she released him and let the dress slip off her body. Mulder looked at her naked beauty and claimed her mouth again as he gently laid her on her bed. He pulled away a little and let his fingertips travel over her, learn her, pleasure her. Mulder kissed her between her breasts then took one of her coral nipples into his mouth, suckling it gently, teasing it till it was hard and erect. His hands traced lazy circles on her inner thighs, teasing her throbbing sex as he moved to her other breast. She let out a guttural moan/whimper/growl of ecstasy as he played her sensitized skin like a harp. He released her breast from his mouth and kissed his way to her neck, where he suckled and nipped as his hands shakily removed his boxers. She opened her self to him and their eyes met. He claimed her mouth hungrily, linking his fingers with hers as he quickly put on a condom. He pulled away and resumed kissing and nipping at her neck as he entered her slowly. He buried himself to the hilt, stopping momentarily to wonder at how he got there. How they got to the point where they were finally connected, finally one, then he started to thrust into her gently. One of his hands tore from hers to gently trace along her body as he made love to her. She made delicious little hums as he increased the intensity and angle of his thrusts, making him laugh softly. She gently attacked his neck, nipping it and kissing him just under his chin. He let out a loud moan when she did that and she smiled "You liked that my precious William." "Fox." He said as he came hard; kissing their joined hands, then claiming her lips for his own. "What?" Dana asked when they calmed. "Fox, my first name is Fox. Fox William Mulder." "Fox William Mulder, it's a nice name. Well nice to finally meet you Fox. See, I didn't have to pay you." Mulder smiled, sighing softly as he held her tighter against him. "No you didn't." "You don't love me Fox." "Yes I do." "No you don't, but it's sweet. I love you for that." Mulder kissed her neck gently, turning her in his arms, devouring her mouth feverishly. Later Mulder woke up alone, the sound of standing water rustling. "Dana?" he said stumbling into the bathroom gasping when he saw her, laying in a tub of red, everything was unnaturally still and quiet. He picked up a note beside her, reading it with a sob. "I'm sorry, I can't love you Fox." Mulder trembled slightly as he walked over to her taking her out of the water, holding her gently in his arms as he carried her to her bed, laying her across it. He smoothed her hair from her face, the tears bathing his face as he reached for the phone to call the police. ** Mulder trembled in Skyler's arms, looking at him warily "Are you mad at me? I slept with someone else willingly . . . I cheated . . ." Skyler ran his fingers tenderly through his mussed chestnut hair and nodded no "I understand, I'm not mad at you. I just hope you trust me enough to tell me your first name one day." Mulder looked into Skyler's loving eyes and smiled, sighing softly as he snuggled into his chest more. "Fox." "What?" "My first name, its Fox. Fox William Mulder." CLOSER You let me violate you, you let me desecrate you You let me penetrate you, you let me complicate you Help me I broke apart my insides, help me I've got no soul to sell Help me the only thing that works for me, help me get away from myself I want to fuck you like an animal I want to feel you from the inside I want to fuck you like an animal My whole existence is flawed You get me closer to god You can have my isolation, you can have the hate that it brings You can have my absence of faith, you can have my everything Help me tear down my reason, help me it's your sex I can smell Help me you make me perfect, help me become somebody else I want to fuck you like an animal I want to feel you from the insides I want to fuck you like an animal My whole existence is flawed You get me closer to god Through ever forest, above the trees Within my stomach, scraped off my knees I drink the honey inside your hive You are the reason I stay alive