From: Para8Dice@aol.com
Date: Sat, 26 Feb 2000 13:08:45 EST
Subject: The Field Where I Lied
Source: direct

Disclaimer:  I do not own Mulder and Scully.  In no way am I recognizing them 
as my own.  They belong to Chris Carter, Fox, and 1013 Productions.  No 
infringement intended.

Title:  The Field Where I Lied

Rating:  NC-17

Keywords:  Mulder/Scully Romance

Summary:  Mulder admits to Scully that he left out who she was in one of his 
lives.  He tells her what we all want to hear.  What we all know is true.  

E-mail:  Para8Dice@AOL.Com
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The Field
6:32 PM

    "Mulder!"
    Mulder stood with the photos in his hand, reciting words in his mind.  
Words that mattered only to him.  He didn't understand all that had been 
happening.  He didn't understand anything.  He'd loved Melissa.  But there 
was more to it.  There were so many unanswered questions in this life, why 
did there have to be more in other lives?  He titled his head towards the 
darkening sky, and embraced the cool air.  Scully came up to him.
    "You okay?"
    "I'm fine, Scully."
    "We should be heading back."
    "You said you wouldn't change anything."
    "And I wouldn't," she said firmly.
    "I would."
    "What do you mean?"
    He sighed.  "This is the field where I lied.  I was here before.  Not in 
this life, and not in the life with Melissa, but in a life with you."
    Scully placed a supporting hand on his shoulder.  "Come on Mulder, let's 
go home."
    "Wouldn't you just listen to me?"
    She looked into his sad green eyes, and saw the desperation.  Of course 
she'd hear him.  But why here? Was he going to tell her she was with him in a 
life?  Of course.  What was she afraid of?  She sat down on the tall grass, 
and he sat down next to her, still holding the photos.  Her hair was blowing 
with the wind, and she looked so beautiful.  He'd never seen anything so 
beautiful in his life.  
    "I'm right here, Mulder.  I'm listening."
    "In every life I remember, we were connected.  We were always together.  
Samantha was always the one I was supposed to take care of, and that's why I 
feel like I've let her down in this life.  But you were my equal.  You were 
strong.  And in the life I'm remembering, we were both married to other 
people, but we had known each other since early life, and we were in love."
    "Mulder-"
    "I know.  I know it sounds crazy, but you said you wouldn't change 
anything in this life.  We lived in the South Pacific islands.  It was so 
beautiful there, warm and full of life.  You were my life.  We didn't love 
the people we were married to.  We were unable to be together, so we did it 
the only way we knew how."
    This was making Scully incredibly uncomfortable.  
    "When I finally took my chance and told you, you were killed."
    Scully felt like she was there.  Like she understood what he was talking 
about.  But it was impossible.
    "It made me so empty, Scully."
    "I'm so sorry.  I'm not going anywhere."
    "The thing is, I risked your life and mine to have that moment of truth 
with you.  And then it all went to hell."
    "That was then, Mulder."
    "You said you wouldn't change anything in this life."
    "I know what I said."
    Mulder was silent for a minute.  "I would."
    "What, what would you change?"
    Mulder turned towards her and gripped the back of her neck, drawing her 
closer.  He paused when their foreheads touched, and then he gained the 
strength inside and crushed his mouth against hers.  She responded 
completely, deepening the kiss.  To her surprise, he pulled back.  
    "Did you ever want that?"
    "I always wanted that."
    "But you said you wouldn't change a thing."
    "Mulder, I wouldn't change a day I've spent with you as long as it's you 
I'm with.  That doesn't mean I've never thought about more."
    "Do you need me to say it?  Don't you know?"
    "Don't I know what?"
    "I love you, Scully.  In every life, I've counted on you, loved you, and 
held you close.  But in almost every life, once I tell you, one of us dies."
    "You said "almost"."
    "In this life, I pray it's different.  I have the faith, but I can't 
wanting this and I won't go another minute without making love to you."
    His arms wrapped around her, the sun was setting.  His arms were like 
vines, climbing and crawling around her until their limbs were entwined.  
Mulder lied flat against the field, pulling her weight against him.  He 
kissed her, over and over.
    "M...Mulder, I love you..."
    He silenced her with a kiss, fierce, desperate. His kiss was so 
incredible, his lips so intense.  She felt her insides soften, and spread in 
burning, liquid waves.  She felt tight and fatigued.  
    She reached his shirt and carefully lifted it from his body, caressing 
the skin with her mouth as it was revealed to her.  Together, the rid him of 
his shirt, and she threw off her suit jacket.  Her light blouse was becoming 
to hot, and she unbuttoned it, kissing him, breathing him in.  
    Scully explored his body with her hands, slowly and tenderly caressing 
his shoulders, and then her hand grasped the back of his neck, and she 
brought his mouth deeper to hers.  Mulder responded by exploring her body.  
He reached behind her, unclasped her bra, and ran his hands down her burning 
back to cup her ass.  He kneaded her ass and together they quickly freed each 
other of their remaining clothing.  
    Then, Scully confidently with an emormous smile, put her body back over 
Mulder's, and kissed him, enjoying the electric sensations going through her 
body.  He held her body and turned them both over so he was on top.  He 
gently cupped her right breast and ran his palm over it again and again, then 
pinched her nipple ever so lightly, causing her to gasp, before taking it 
into his mouth.  
    His other hand found the special area between her legs and he began to 
caress the inner folds while sucking on her nipple.  His tongue trailed over 
her breast, not just her nipple, while his other hand teased her over and 
over again.  His mouth found its way down her stomach, and to her center.  
    Scully lifted her head to look at him, then tilted her head back as his 
lips met her core.  She looked up at the moon, and thought how much she loved 
him.  She felt wild though, and greedy.  She wrapped one leg around his neck 
and arched her hips.  Blood was rushing through every part of her inflamed 
body.  He kissed her over and over, drawing her closer to climax, and when 
she couldn't take it anymore, she pulled him up to her and guided him inside 
her.  Together, they moaned.  
    Each thrust became a little deeper, and their breaths and moans echoed 
across the country side.  It seemed as though they'd made love in a previous 
life in this exact spot.  Mulder's hands caressed Scully's shoulders, and 
when she felt herself coming closer, she wrapped her arms around his back and 
pulled him as close as she could, groaning with pleasure.  
    Suddenly, she rolled over so she was ontop, thrusting faster and deeper, 
and her breasts bounced.  He raised his head to kiss her mouth and bring her 
back to him.  Together, they reached their heaven, and they cried out.  
Breathing heavy, her hair dangling on his face, she was so beautiful.  
    "I'm..." she said breathless.  "I'm still here Mulder."
    "This field, Scully, it's where so much has happened.  This is the field 
where I lied."
    "In more ways then one," she said kissing him.